The Value of the Irreplacable

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Breaking up with a girl friend / boy friend is tough. That is a pain that many are not able to come out of, because of which they slowly befriend the escapist (the bottle of drinks of course).  But there is a pain that far surpasses these yet, shows up in a subtle but powerful forms and that is losing a friend.

Losing a friend is tough, but getting that friend back is even tougher. After all, a friend is one person with whom u can be your complete true self. To lose someone as close as that, it almost close to becoming mad. Unfortunately, I did lose a friend like that. She was someone who was the closest to me [mom, dad n bro aside], someone with whom I could be at my best childish behaviour n not feel awkward, because she accepts me the way I am, the whole package and not just parts of it. She is my bulby (well, am not explaining why I call her that, but know that it was one of her big goof ups). The worse part, after the “Big Fight”, wasn't just the feeling of complete emptiness. But rather the realization that the gap left can never be filled. because to be able to fill the empty gap in yourself, you need to meet someone who's heart is as empty as yours.

But the best part is 3 yrs after everything, my chat symbol showing available (thankfully i had gone without the invisible mode after a very long time) which caught her attention. And then starting to chat with her (she was the braver of the two, to initiate). N guess what, nothing has changed. Overnight, the gap just got filled. Then it struck, childhood friends are on a league of their own. No one can be on par with them [© bulby, the realization lighting had struck her]. In fact, it’s just so amazing to have her back, that all my old feelings of possessiveness just came back in an instant [God alone known’s where they were hiding till now]. So much so that, when she was telling me about her break up, facially I was very sad, although I can tell the same thing was going on in my mind.

But, one lesson that I have learnt the hard way is to make sure to patch up almost immediately after a fight. Granted that there might still be a few bitter feelings to begin with, but that would heal over time. In fact, that’s a much simpler process than waiting for the right opportunity to occur. I would never ever lose my bulby again.

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